Autumn and Paris

You are feeling down, I know.

Things are not going well, I know.

The dreams you thought you finally achieved came crashing down in front of you as soon as it happened, I know.

Everything you thought you knew are gone, I know.

You feel like you don't deserve anything, I know.

You feel like you lose all yourself confidence and you're acting immature, I know.

But you shouldn't feel that way all the time.

You shouldn't allow yourself to be feeling that way everyday.

You said you will travel the world.

You promised yourself you'll make your dreams come true.

And even if you don't experience it, today's autumn.

You'd love to experience autumn.

You promised yourself about Paris.

Whenever you're feeling down,

try to remember everything you promised yourself.

If ever... Remember.

If ever you feel like there was nothing left...
          Remember how much you tried to gain.
If ever you feel like you do not deserve...
          Remember every hard work you did that got you this far.
If ever you feel lost...
          Remember how you found yourself the first time you were.
If ever you feel like the whole world cannot compensate...
          Remember the fact that it doesn't only revolve around you.
If ever you feel sad...
          Remember the things that made you feel otherwise.
If ever you feel like your dreams are not coming true.
          Remember how you promised yourself of that beautiful autumn that you are yet to experience once all your dreams come true.

Dreams, Please Don't Fly Away From Me

The dreams I have seem to be drifting away from me. Everyday it takes a step farther from where I stand and I watch them go without doing anything.

I am helpless. Words are running out. All the colors I had put into words are starting to drip off of the once beautiful painting I created.

I made myself believe I was a writer....

only to realize I'm not even as good as the ones who are out there.

I made myself believe I was good....

but really, it was just rotten luck I had a book published.

Write, Silly Girl. There is Nothing You Can Do Better But Write

I highly doubted myself before about my ability to write. My ability to create a whole new world with the use of words. I have always been a story teller. I make things up in my head and at night all these tangled thoughts become my dreams. In those moments, I can dream wide awake. And then one day I started writing them. I didn't know about grammar and other technicalities, all I know is to write things as they are in my imagination. No rules. No mistakes. As long as I understand them.

And then the impossible happened and I was able to publish one of the world I created. It wasn't polished technically, but every word came from my heart. Each and every word. One thing I learned from that experience is I should study more. Learn more about technicalities and improve myself because grammar is something that shouldn't be taken for granted in writing. And I'm grateful to the people who can correct my errors because I learn from them.

I will learn.


I should learn.



This is what it takes to be a writer. :)