I need someone. I do.

I want to hold your hand.

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #8

D,

This will be a letter of a heartbreak.

I was about to type "so if you're happy, I suggest you skip through this." but I don't think you haven't found this yet. Or worst, you will never find it.

Lately, I have been so lonely. I don't know why, but it gets really harder especially at night when you realize you are not someone else's reason to wake up. I hardly ever think of that but since I'm getting old I'm having this kind of thoughts. What if no one will ever find me?

It doesn't help either that you don't know about my existence, I know it is absurd but.......

I guess some things are just hard to explain even if you consider yourself a writer.

To be honest, I really don't know why I'm sad.

Maybe because I need someone right now...

Maybe I need a hand to hold...

Maybe I need a shoulder to cry on...

Maybe I need a shoulder to lean on when I sleep...

Maybe I need a hug...

Maybe I need someone who will tell me that I'm pretty no matter what I wear...

Maybe I need someone who will tell me that he will always be there...

Maybe I need someone who will tell me he won't hurt me, even if we both know that he lies...

Maybe I need someone who will serenade me at night...

Maybe I need someone to call me everyday and yet say I miss you all the time...

Maybe I need someone...

Or maybe...

I just need you.

I don't know when will this stop. I don't have the slightest idea when the time comes that I wake up and you're just a distant memory. And the picture beside my bed will not be of you.

I know I'm old enough to believe that no matter what I will never ever have you, or even see you in person for that matter. But still, I am young enough to believe that something extraordinary might happen someday.

I want you to know that there are many times I tried to convince myself that I am living in a dream and that reality is already waking me up, but every time I see you it gets harder to open my eyes.

I know this is silly and all and that maybe this is just a phase young adults experience having deprived to live their teenage lives because of studies but I really, really do love you.

I have dreamed of you countless of times and I just couldn't help myself to stop thinking that all dreams that you dream twice will come true.

I'm getting really lonely.

PLEASE FIND ME.

B

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #7

D,

We are this perfect shade of blue.

Always,

B

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #6

D,

This has everything that I've been wanting to tell you. Funny how Pooh knows exactly how I feel.


Come out moon
Come out wishing star
Come out
Come out
Wherever you are

I’m out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I’m empty and I’m cold
And my heart's about to break
Come and find me

I need you to come here and find me
Cause without you I’m totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn’t done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are

I’ll hear you laugh
I’ll see you smile
I’ll be with you just for a while
But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I will lose you

Because it’s just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I will lose you

I use to believe in forever
But forever is to good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn’t done much good so far

I don’t know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are

Wherever you are


FIND ME. It doesn't have to be now. As long as you find me.


<3,
B

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #5

D,

You are there. Moving. I can hear you. I can see you clearly. I can feel your touch. In that one blissful dream you are finally mine and mine alone.

Your face. Your eyes. Staring at mine.

For one moment there you existed in my world. A world that consists of just meeting you.


Come find me,
B

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #4

D,

Today is 11/11/11.

It was told that it brings good luck and if you're lucky and made a wish at 11:11 am/pm there are chances that it can come true.

I'm not going to tell you what my wish was. Because I'm afraid that if I do, it won't come true. :)


I would've given Peperro too if I were wherever you are. <3




I had a dream about you too. It's funny it seemed so real. :) The way you talk to me, it was as if I really did hear your voice.



When will I meet you?



Please find me.



Always,
B

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD NEVER TELL YOU #3

D,

People might think it's pointless to waste my time in writing this to you. But you know, they don't really matter.

At least I believe in the fact that someday, even if you will never know my existence,

there's this one girl who loved you this much. <3

I believe that you will find someone who will take care of you, and I believe that I will find someone for me too.

Always,
B